Remember a couple months ago when I was recently broken up with, and I remembered back to my college days.  Remember when I talked about how it was great to be busy all the time because it kept me from feeling lonely? Remember how that was my plan…to keep busy all the time?  Well guess what? It happened.  As they say, be careful what you wish for.  I am busy as hell.  I’ve got shit going on every day.  And when I don’t have shit going on, I have freelance to do.  All of that is good though…right?  I think so. Anyway, on to the news.

Today in Iraq….wait…not that news.  I meant the news about my past busy week.  I’ll start with Tuesday.  Have you ever sent yourself 60 thousand e-mails in a matter of say…15 minutes? I can now add that to my list of accomplishments.  There are a few things you’re not supposed to do in programming.  One of them is to close your database connections when you’re done with them. Another is to not eat Cheetos and then mouse or type getting cheese all over the keys.  Probably the most important one though…DO NOT RUN AN INFINITE LOOP.  Guess what I did on Tuesday?  Can’t guess.  Oh yeah…infinite loop.  I forgot one key line that’s all of 11 characters: rs.movenext.  That line says to the loop…great…we’re done with this item, what’s the next one now? So due to that, it never got to its end point.  The loop I ran sent out an e-mail to myself each time through.  I managed to completely back log the e-mail smtp on our web server.  We had to reboot the dev server and stop the smtp, clear out as much as we could, and then restart it all.  At least I didn’t manage to crash anything.  Oh…and of course, it was the last function I had to code before the software was ready to go. Figures huh?  There’s nothing like that feeling of “Oh No” when you hit run, and suddenly your e-mail inbox is flooded with e-mails that say “FAILED” in big capital letters in the subject line.  How fitting and…when I look back on it…hilarious.  I should have taken a video and posted it on the failblog.  Oh well.

I want to clear up a controversy in my life, which is an intended dramatic overstatement.  In my last post I suggested that I may have had a date this past weekend.  Well, I lied.  Sorta.  A friend of mine bought a shiny new car. In fact, it was a Mustang.  I was offered a ride in it.  This also happens to be a trans friend of mine that I’m somewhat attracted to.  So…call it slightly wishful thinking. Ultimately, neither of us had time.  So it didn’t happen anyway. That should clear things up.

Speaking of relationships, I had an odd one start recently.  I got a facebook e-mail from someone I hadn’t seen in years.  It was one of the girls that lived in the neighborhood when I was in grade school.  I remember hanging out with her sister a few times.  I didn’t really spend any time with her though.  So it was a little odd.  It was basically saying hi and that she heard about my transition and thought it was cool.  She wanted to chat.  She IMed me through facebook and we talked.  During the conversation, it came out that she had a crush on me back in the day when I was a grade school boy.  I said that it was interesting and told her I was pretty oblivious to that stuff back then…cause I was.  We continued to talk and she made mention that she apparently still has those same feelings.  This came as a shock because I don’t even know this girl.  I really don’t remember even talking to her.  I don’t know her now.  She doesn’t know me.  So I was a little creeped out.  Then after that, she was like…you drive a green focus don’t you? I’ve seen it parked at your parents house.  Yeah…at this time here’s what’s going on in my head:  *red lights flashing*  *alarms going off* warning!! warning!!      Yeah…way creeped out at that point.  She offered me her number and wanted me to call her so we can meet.  I’ve stayed off facebook and I didn’t write the number down. I’m now up to two creepy stalker types, and one of them lives within driving distance.  That’s no good.

Random stuff…my car passed emissions testing.  I made sure my credit cards are officially enrolled in the payment plan (for some reason, one wasn’t being included).  I’ve been eating well lately.  And I’m making a lot of business contacts.  So that’s good stuff.

Speaking of the business, this past weekend was a video shoot for the Children’s program I’m involved in.  I have to say, I was not impressed with the technology brought in to shoot this promo.  We had three Hi-8 cameras…not digital 8…just good old analog Hi-8.  There were no lights.  The microphones weren’t bad, but the guy wanted to route a wireless lav into a cassette deck.  Wow.  I used my hand held camera to shoot some behind the scenes footage, and I found it sad that my tiny little camcorder captures a much better resolution than the Hi-8 cameras could possibly get.  This will be interesting.  Anyway, the puppeteer for the show wanted me to meet with an arts organization for possible involvement.  So we set up a meeting for Monday.

At the meeting Monday night, I got to meet the man who founded the organization and heard more about what they’re looking for.  Turns out I’m just what they want.  They are looking for someone with video skills that knows the net.  I can use them for grant applications, and they can use me to boost their marketability and visibility.  Turns out they want to produce a children’s show too. This one would be a traditional half hour program with segments.  I’m excited! I think we could easily get a grant to produce it.  I’m all for it.  It’s a non-profit organization too.  I’m covered under their liability insurance, and I’ll get a share of the gig money when I shoot the video for it.  How awesome is that?! Doors opened and none of them closed.  So I’m all in. In the meantime, they’re also going to help me search for women in business grants too.  Maybe I can get a red!

Lastly, tonight I finally got to meet a trans friend that I’ve known for several years.  We started talking when I was in college. Apparently her son was going to UWEC too.  I went over to her house and met her and her partner in person.  They also have a cute boxer puppy! We talked, had dinner, and watched a movie.  It was nice.  It’s not often I get to meet friends like that.  We’re very different in age.  Both of them were about as old as my parents.  It was fascinating to me to see two trans people so religious too.  One would not expect to go to a trans family’s house and say grace at the dinner table, but it happened tonight.  It was interesting to hear them discuss the movie too, which was “A Walk to Remember” starring Mandy Moore and Shane West.  They would make comments about how one was meant for the other to heal them and what not.  I remember making comments like that back when I identified as a christian.  It was different for me, and yet in a lot of ways, it was refreshing.  It makes me happy to see that not all transpeople go through the negativity I internalized after getting kicked out of a church.  So yeah…I had a good time…and did I mention the food?  Steak? Damn!

And here ends the reading.  I’ll be doing my best to get the next podcast out this weekend.  It’s been hectic! I’ll get to it though.  Until next time…